aaaaaaaaargh

Blogger poker tour final yesterday...
I am still angry about it. I could win an Ipod just by clicking on the fold button. But no, I re-reised all in, I don't know why. When I'm in a situation where there's too much stress, and too much to lose, I just can't calm down and start to think. This game involves a lot of thinking, and if you lose your head, you will finish 12 instead of top 10.
I can't wait till the next blogger poker tour, I think I've learned something but I'm such a big big sucker. I am an awful poker player, and also not satisfied with all my life and myself. I give up before starting anything. hard hard hard